Times have changed guys; a fifty-piece orchestra (statues) is simply not possible. Believe it or not I love club music, I spent a lot of my life lost in music on one dance floor or another and happily I believe it works better when it’s raw. Yet, functional music is exceptionally hard to pull off and so it’s still a challenge I find incredibly interesting. I would have to disagree about Moloko’s music working in the clubs, when quite often it did not when it was meant to. Hence Sing it back and even Forevermore, work better as remixes.
I happen to think there were some wonderful mixes of Mommas Place done in the competition as good as any so called professional ones and I find working with the new technology of web possibilities exciting. Whatever you think of Perez, his website is the reason some many people submitted tracks in the hope of finding a massive audience for their work and for that I thank him. Ruby Blue is a one off, never to be repeated record; if I tried to recreate that experience it would do nothing for anybody.

I am turning a new chapter in my creative life, returning to London next week to get started. I have a child and she is wonderful, so everything else will have to fit in around her. I will do this on my own terms or not at all. I am closing down this site, as it seems very much part of the past. A clean sheet is what’s needed and that is what I intend to create. Those of you who wish to follow my evolving career will not be disappointed, as I still have a lot to prove. There may be some of you who are perfectly happy with what I have already created, with old records and with the past. The past will always be there but I have to move on, so I must respectfully ask you to make your own arrangements.

This forum and the rest of the site will come down this week. As I have said, its time. I have always paid attention to what is being discussed here, you have made me laugh and you have brought tears to my eyes on numerous occasions. I have really appreciated all your support and your collective intelligence over the years. It has spurred me on. I have been afraid to shut this thing down for a while now, a fear of change and of losing you.
I feel utterly blessed to have been allowed to make music my life; by some fluke I have managed to make a decent living from it too. It’s important to me that you all know that I have on the whole, been happy with my lot. Perhaps I am no Dolly Parton when it comes to doing interviews and getting my point across in the way I have it in my mind and sometimes I wish I had put things differently but I really do feel I have made a success of my career, in that I have rarely had to compromise and never when it really mattered.
I have never been a political animal, I have met artists who are, adept at playing the game and acutely aware of who does what for them and who holds the power within the industry. But when I look back at it all now I even enjoy the memories of rows and turbulence with record companies, screaming and shouting at men who thought they knew what was best for me. Maybe they did and maybe they didn’t, but it’s all part of a story so full of twists and turns I can only laugh about it now.
I have been petulant and even a little spoiled, in some ways it all came too easy. In other ways it’s been fraught and not without it’s difficulties, I have had to fight. I became a singer and a songwriter by chance but I grabbed the bull by the horns. I became a performer out of sheer will and a real sense of destiny. With the exception of watching my daughter grow, the best times of my life have been on that stage.
So where do I go from here? Well, no matter what you read in cheesy celebrity magazines about those busy working Mums, I believe you can’t replicate time. I need time with Clodagh to see her develop and to be sure she feels loved. One of my greatest weaknesses in my work life has been a difficulty with delegation. Imagine then, how hard I would find delegating her upbringing. I have to see how it will pan out; it’s impossible to be sure how much I can commit to work in the near future.
But this I do know, there will be more stand-alone releases. I know most of you what an Album with all the hoopla that goes with that but that’s simply not possible right now. If and when that does happen I feel it would be better to start again, afresh. I am very doubtful these tracks will ever be part of an album project. Yet, I have seen before how just one song can change everything, all it takes is the right song and a little luck.
Up to now the DJ thing has been purely a fun experiment and done on the hop so to speak, but I have plans to expand it. I have begun to really enjoy it and even feel I can hold my own as a DJ. I intend to create music especially for it’s purposes and plan to expand its scope in terms of sound experimentation. I even think I can bring a visual element into it, digitising film and projections.
And so there it is, all I can do is bring the whole thing back to basics in the hope I can build again from there. Song by song, performance by performance, no massive over arching plans and no pressure so everything I do I can do with complete conviction. It’s about creativity again, in everything. It should be fun and so it is.
You guys have always been and always will be great! Stay in touch with one another and may I humbly ask you to keep an ear out for me? Because I’ll be out there, fighting, writing, recording and performing my little socks off.